First Year of living in Arkansas

                     WOW!!!!!!!!!! It has been a year since I moved from Denver to Sulphur Springs. It seems like just yesterday that I had moved here. And wow have things changed (for the better of course). Things have been going great and I have grown more as a person and a women of God. I went from living in Colorado and working for Walmart to living in Arkansas and working for Tyson Foods, Inc. I also went from being a blonde to a red head. As all can tell things have changed for me. And I hope things keep changing for the better.

Me when I was a blonde when I first moved to Arkansas

Me now as a Red head a year after I moved

Life's Update #3

   Well it has almost been a year since I moving down here to Sulphur Springs, Arkansas. On the 24th of this month I will have lived here a year. Wow! has time flew by. It seems like just yesterday that I was leaving Colorado to head this way. It doesn't seem possible that it has been a year. I have gone from being a blonde........

Me a year ago

......to me being a red head.

Me now

         Nothing has really changed since I updated last except that I am a year older now. Well other then my family and I got a second dog. He is a pit bull and he defiantly is getting big and is still growing. Meet Ugga. He is only 7 months old and is only 55 lbs. Isn't he cute? We also have another dog named Spaz who is 4 years old and is part Terrier, part weenie.

Meet Ugga Short

Meet Spaz Short

     I can't explain how much I am happy being down here with my mom and dad. This has always bee a dream of mine to be with my parent. And it happened almost a year ago. I am so blessed to have such great parents who love me and I can say that I am defiantly making friends down here -not that I am saying that I don't miss my friends up in Colorado, because I really do miss all of you so much. You all should keep in contact with me. I love you guys so much.

   Well that is all the update I have for now. Love all my Colorado friends. Miss you guys so much. Love you mom and dad.

Life's Update #2

     Wow! It has been a little more than eight months since I picked up roots in Colorado and moved to Arkansas. It definitely has been a change for me. As many of you know that when I moved down here I had to leave my job at Walmart due to no store down here had any openings or had the hours to give me so that I could transfer stores. But in a way that was a good thing due to the fact that one I wasn't happy working for Walmart any more and two like four months after I moved down here all the stores I tried to transfer to closed down and the buildings they were in were sold. Anyway, I had started working for Tyson Food in January and for the most part it hasn't been to bad.
     Back in the end of April early part of May I had been bite by a brown recluse spider on my right forearm area and had to miss a week of work so that nothing serious happened to me and my health and also so that I didn't potentially contaminate the raw chicken I have to work with. But lucky enough the spot where I was bite is now healed up and of course I have a "nice" looking scar on my arm from it. Gotta love when you have injuries that leave scars like that.
    Also as a lot of you know, I am no longer a blonde- well technically I am still a blonde, naturally, but still. I am now a red head and I can say that I actually like being a red head. It seems to suit me better then being a blonde.

     Well I guess you all are up to date on how things have been with me. Hopefully I hear from a lot of you here in the next couple weeks or so. I love you all and miss all my Colorado friends. Keep in contact all of you.

      Much Love Always!

Belonging

      

           Have you ever questioned if you belong somewhere or with someone or a group of people? I don't know about you, but from time to time I have. I have questioned on if I truly belonged with those who raised me. Questioned if I truly belonged at the schools I have attend (especially high school). I have even questioned if I really belonged here on this earth at all. Sometimes even wondered if it was worth it at all. 

        Lately, I have seen episodes of a televison seires on the Freeform (formally known as ABC Family) called The Fosters. If you haven't heard of it or seen it, its about a teenager who has been in and out of many different foster homes, has finally found the one foster home that finally becomes her forever family. It talks about not only the foster care system, but helps those who go through the system find where they truly belong. I even love the theme song to the show its called, "Where you belong" by Kari Kimmel. You all should listen to it and comment what you think.

   In all the things that have gone through my life and the number of times that I have asked 'Where do I belong?' I can say that the six months I have been living here in Sulphur Springs, Arkansas I can finally say that I have FINALLY found where I belong and the family I truly belong with. I definitely feel loved, protected, happy, and overall feel like I actually belong. 

      For those of you out there who feel like you don't belong somewhere, just remember this, it might take some time for you to feel like you belong somewhere, but there is a place where you belong. You will find that place, you just have to keep looking and don't give up on it. I know what you are going through and I know how it feels to think that there is no where and that you don't belong anywhere, but it will turn around and you will find that place. Don't stop looking just because it gets hard or it seems impossible because even though it is hard, it's not impossible.

Much Love always.

Giving up......Should you or should you not

     Have you ever thought that question...Should I give up? I know a lot of people probably have at least once in their life time. I know I have asked that question myself on countless occasions. There have also been people who have even said, "I give up, I am done!" That could mean many things right? Like I give up, I am done with living life so I am going to attempt suicide and end my own life, or I give up, I am done working for this job or this boss so I am going quit or I give up, I am done with having to go school its too hard and it is not right for me so I am going to drop out.

    Those are just some of the example of when people have said that they give up. I know that there have been time, since starting my new job at Tyson, that I have thought about giving up and quitting, but I have had to stop and think, "Do I really want to give up and quit this job?" "If I do give up and quit is it really going to be the right decision to make?" And I ultimately talk myself out of quitting. There have even been time that I have said I give up, I am done living my life. I will admit that I had thought about committing suicide just before my sixteenth birthday. Up to that point, I had been through so much and I had so many voices floating around in my head and personally attacking me, that I didn't know what to do. I had no one to talk to at the time, the voices that were in my head kept taking over the one true voice inside my head that personally for me, that I knew I had to do something and the one thing that came to mind was suicide. So that was the only thing that my own personal voice would think about while I was being attacked by the other voices that were in my head. I had truly given up, but hadn't acted on them (thank goodness now). I was lucky enough I had one person who helped me get out of those thoughts.

     I guess that yeah in a way when I was sixteen that I had given up, but I hadn't really truly given up. As I look back now I can say that yeah I didn't completely give up just because I knew, in the back of my mind that something better would come along and that I would be happier than I was back then. I know at least one person-and I won't say who, but they know who they are-that has wanted to give up on life, but I take it that without, not only the help of those who love them, but with the help of thinking of that one reason why they held on so long and the thought of who they may or may not leave behind if they had given up was what stopped them from giving up.

    Things may get hard, but don't give up because of it. There is always another way around those hard things and those hard times. Just remember that you are not alone in those hardest times in your life and that there is almost always someone right there behind you ready to catch you and to help you and help you get past those hard times and hard things in your life. For anyone who is going through things and want to give up, I beg you PLEASE don't give up, yes it may seem hard and may seem like the only option, but it is not the only option. Don't be afraid to ask someone you love or someone you trust to help you, there is ALWAYS someone out there that is willing to help no matter what things you want to give up on.

Much Love to all my friends and family who are always behind me 100%. Thank you all for believing me and helping make sure I don't give up on something that I shouldn't give up on.

Life

I have decided to share some of my poems with you all. So over time I will share all of my poems. I hope you enjoy them. Much love always.

Life

Life-

Is too short to waste.

We all should live life

As if we’ll never

Die.

Life-

Is too short to waste.

So we should

Live a life of

Purpose.

We should say-

“I don’t need easy;

I just need possible.” (Bethany Hamilton)

When things get

Tough.

Life-

Is too short to waste.

So make everyday

Count as your

Last.

Life-

Is too short to waste.

So don’t waste it.

Welcome 2016

 

     Well hello New Year! We meet again! Another year has come and gone and now it is time to start another year. How fast or slow will this year go this time? I honestly hope that 216 doesn't go by to fast or to slow, that it goes somewhere in the middle of the two. So that it doesn't feel like the year drags on, but also so that speed right on by like 2015 did.

    As the begun, I couldn't help but think of the things have changed for me in this past year, but I also started to dream about what the future will hold for me. I was going through so photos of this year and it got  me to thinking that yeah so much has changed for me, but I am surely ready to see how the rest of me is going to continue to change. I know that since I started TOPS two years ago and started working on my weight that that is one thing that in not going to change but it is going to change. Its not going to change that I am going to continue to work on losing with, but I know for a fact that my weight will change for the better. I have such a great support system not only with my family, but with the amazing TOPS group I had back in Colorado. TOPS #CO 620, Aurora, you guys are amazing and have surely inspired me to continue my weight loss journey. Tom Tigert, Judy Maurer, Marilyn Ryan, Carole Kidwell, Leeda Manz, Bev Haley, and Donna Wallis; you all are truly an inspiration to me since you all have met your weight loss goals and are continuing and starting (Donna Wallis) to maintain your weight. I am looking forward to making KOPS statues within the TOPS organization and you and the chapter will be the first to know about it.

Well I hope you all had a great first day of 2016. May God bless you and your loved ones this year. I love you all. And miss all of my friends in Colorado.